1145 Sunday. Just finishing my third beer. I just need some spark, to turn me on. Lucy gave me that last time; Adelina in Vienna; previously in Brussels Andrea or Julia. I am just lacking that someone to spark me into life and make me catch fire. Catching Ina at Fifth Avenue at the right moment, before I am too drunk. It may sound stupid, but for me to actually HAVE sex with someone, the stars and planets have got to be in some rare alignment. If the moment does not seem perfect, then I cannot do it. I resist it, and if I do not resist it, it is a mistake.