Actually, at the moment though my burning memories are all of shame at my pathetic, wretched behaviour, I think what may come shining through over time, like sun burning through early morning fog & rain, are the lovely smiles I got from so many women over the course of the four days. There were really some lovely fleeting moments of attraction during my stay in Brussels and Antwerp. I cannot be such a monster, when some people seemed to take at least some liking to me. Can I?